Thursday, February 2, 2012

On Occasion...

This is a lot.
It can be too much.
And I admit I wasn't ready for it.
But I've done it, and done it good and proud for nearly 5 months now. I added school to it, with the support of my husband.
But then he had hand surgery.
And the laundry piled up. And the unanswered emails. Throw in everything. My poor husband has learned to dread, "I'll take care of it", because he knows it means I am frustrated. My list is too long for the next three tomorrows and there is still stuff to do on each of those days.

I read the trials of mothers and I feel like I can truly relate.

I just want to know I have all the time in the world to take care of it all, to actually take care of it, and maybe get a little help while doing it. Then I can have more time to be romantic with my husband, more than "on occasion". I want to be lovey, and cuddle, and all of that. But I sit down, zapped already, and read some more. Or zone out. Or anything else but be lovey.

It's just a lot, on occasion.

Today was one of those days.

6 comments:

  1. I think you guys are doing amazingly well. You well know these days come and go. My productivity is so diminished since having a kid, and he takes two naps a day!!! I admire that you have gone back to school with all you have on your plate. Be good to yourself, you're doing a hell of a good job! xo

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  2. I wish I had some honest, encouraging, BTDT words to share. Alas, I do not. What I do have is a shoulder and a "somebody knows & cares" message to share with you.

    As someone who is dealing with the military medical system and a chronic neurological disease on a daily basis, I can tell you that simply navigating those waters is a full-time job. Add everything else on top and, well, you're a miracle worker. You can do this. You ARE doing this.

    And truly? I don't think anyone is EVER ready for it. You just learn to cope, and to adapt.

    Hang in there, hon. ::hugs::

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  3. You have so much on your plate that I don't know how you manage to get through every day without feeling overwhelmed--I think you're doing an amazing job!

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  4. You have so much going on, I think you do a great job! You amaze me with all that you do. Still sending prayers your way!

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  5. As everyone else has already said, you ARE doing an amazing job! You will have those overwhelming days, and every day may feel overwhelming. I haven't been through what you have, and I can't even imagine dealing with it as well as you. Yes, the laundry will pile up and the to-do list will get longer. But, know that your husband still loves you even when "you'll get around to it." You are doing a wonderful job. If you have to, let something add to the to-do list so that you can spend some lovin' time with your husband. Those moment's, he'll be glad when you say "I'll get around to it." He'll take loving over clean dishes any day. ;)

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